Some days are good and some days are bad. I don't know why but it happens. It's like a switch goes off in your head.
It started off good. Had breakfast at The Metropolitan at The Borgata....a lightly toasted buttered bagel, a side of bacon and tea. Really good!!!! Ended up making a quick exit and coming home a day early. It takes an hour and a half to drive home and my head was in a good place on the way home. It was about 3PM and instead of stopping in the store and buying some candy when I left Borgata (like I usually do), I opted not to. On the way home, had a handful of the health snacks I had packed for myself before I left.
Then I started to think about dinner and what I would eat. My Jenny Craig food had arrived the day before I left and I started to think about that. Here's the problem though.....when you order the three day package, it's kind of a surprise. You never know what you're going to get. And I got mostly things I don't like......mesquite chicken, beef chow mein. They have so many good meals and they send me crappy ones. You would think they would send you the best sellers to encourage you to order more. I also started to think about stopping on the way home and picking up a hoagie for my husband for dinner. And then it began. Well, perhaps I would like one as well. Get him a large one and me a small one. And that's how it begins for me. I got a small ham and swiss hoagie and a small bag of chips. As if that wasn't enough, I had this decadent chocolate/popcorn/pretzel/oreo pizza pie in the house that hasn't been opened. (This isn't the actual pie in the picture but I'm sure you get the gist). I got it for Christmas and it's been sitting there just waiting. I've resisted this long and tonight I folded and I'm so mad at myself. But these are the things that happen when you're trying to lose weight. You're not always going to be good. There are always going to be lapses. I went for 17 days without one and tonight it hit.
The key here is to wake up tomorrow and get back on plan. I will have a Jenny Craig breakfast and a Jenny Craig dinner. That will definitely get me back on track. I think I might even take my dog on a half hour walk. This would be my first form of exercise since I started my program. Here's a sample picture of some of the Jenny Craig food. Unfortunately, they didn't send me any of this. Pictured here is the chicken fajita which I love as well as the tuna salad for lunch. In any event, I will make due with what they sent and promise myself to be good tomorrow. I have a lot coming up in the next few days....dinner and movie with my husband on Saturday...back to the Borgata with a friend on Sunday...possible movie day on Tuesday and in the city on Wednesday to see Evita so there's not a lot of opportunity to not eat diet food in the next few days. So I MUST do this tomorrow. Let's see just how good I can be.
EDIT: Just had a thought and wanted to add it here before I forgot. This is what happens to be all the time when I begin to take liberties and I want to bring it to my OWN attention. When I ordered room service last night, there was no need for me to order the apple crisp for dessert. I'm trying to lose weight. I did not need that. Today when I got the hoagie, why did I get a bag of potato chips with it. Again, not necessary. And this is exactly what leads to me eating that piece (2) of chocolate pizza pie. Okay, I feel better that I've put this in writing and hopefully I'll come back and reread it everytime I have a lapse.
EDIT 2: And this is precisely why I'm only weighing myself on this "plan". If I weighed myself tomorrow after what I ate today, my weight would definitely be more and I would get depressed and then guess what????? I would eat some more. Just glad tomorrow isn't Tuesday....the day I weigh myself.
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